Sunday, March 8, 2009

Breaking Free

It is behind me and I want to leave it there.
Going forward into my new world seems the safer route.
It happened in my yesterdays and I want to leave it there
far behind me, in the past.
The cocoon that I have worked around me has created a new environment, one that
is safe and secure. It holds me fast. I am thriving.
But I was told that I must not be deceived, the cocoon will eventually suffocate me.
I will die unless I chose to look back at my old world and face the hurts far behind me.
I work my way through the cocoon while my heart begs to stay. 
I have become comfortable with the way things are. 
I feel safe in the hollow of its embrace. Feelings try to deceive me.
Transformation has occurred within my nest and I am not the same.
At one time the cocoon provided me comfort, rest, and nourishment and now it is
securing my future as I work to free myself from it's firm grasp.
Facing my past, what used to be is an important step to take. So I will leave my
nest and face my future while looking into what used to be wearing a new mantle.
No longer hiding.
Healing is on the other side of my nest. Outside.
And so I begin my journey, a little shaky, and yet determined. 
I want to be restored. If relationship returns, I will rejoice. 
If it remains as it is, I will walk in the freedom I have been given, but I will not
go back into the cocoon and hide myself away. It was good for a season but not now.
Obedience, choosing to follow rather than creating my own trail is my only option.
Soon I will be soaring to new heights with this newfound strength with the only One
who can lead me there.





1 comment:

Joyful said...

Freedom is often a struggle and the familiar often calls us to return to the safety of the cocoon. Not an easy metamorphosis, but resulting in soaring with Him.

Still learning to break free,
Joy