The word justified means, "just as if I had never sinned".
My life is now hidden in Christ and the Father can no longer see my wretchedness but only His holiness.
This humbles me.
I deserve punishment. I receive grace.
I deserve justice. I receive mercy.
I deserve nothing less than death, but I am given new life.
I love that the Lord would be so generous to me. I am so thankful. I rejoice in my salvation.
I am a receiver needing to be a giver.
The Lord has been wrestling with me all night. It is this very issue that He has brought to light in the wee hours of morning. My heart has been exposed. It has caused great despair.
When others offend, annoy, frustrate me..........I do not treat them with grace. I do not treat them as if they had never sinned against me. I don't easily release past offenses. There are certain people that were destined to be an irritant in my life. Sandpaper. Ughhh!!!!!
There was victory at the end of our match this morning. The Lord won. True to His nature He awarded me the prize. Grace. He has given me grace to let them go. He has given me grace to begin again. He has given me grace to forgive myself.
There will be more sandpaper moments. There will be grace to treat those who offend with grace and mercy. I trust that He has made me rich in this. I will choose to walk in it.